SouLust

And the mirror in the room it sings
And the mirror in the room it sighs
It says i've seen your reflection every day of my life
And I still don’t know what it looks like to be alive
















you can finish it if you'd like. =}

I can't capture the light behind eyes when someone thinks of something that makes their lips part. this isn't meant to be poetic or have any form of grammar or spelling, really. i'm just thinking in ink. well..electronic ink. i just heard the most beautiful transition of music. it was really sudden, yet really smooth somehow. i've learned to erase any form of dislike. there are things that i love and thinks that im indifferent about now. its much more comfortable. music that i had thought tired or distasteful is now enjoyable, to say the least. its really nice up on this cloud of mine. it seems i always have more space to learn to love. i feel like as my life goes on i keep reaching new hells that parachute me up to different heavens, all because i decide thats what i want to do. i wish i could teach you, but youd have to be tortured first. plus, im no good at words, dear friends.

p.s. the record player is finally in my room! such excitement!

Sleep, it is not in my dreams
i dream of lust and passion, but only on my own accordances
i wait for it, and i know it wont come till morning
medication does not soothe me
suit, not, as well
i prefer my own methods
i prefer my fantasies
you try to force these things, but is it possible that im not cut out for your world?
your standards are not mine
your morals and mine divide
i see that now
why do i see clearly at night?
when filled with foggy feelings that induce an awkward fright?
i see best when i think worst
when i feel most
when i know least
definite is not a definition i know
the future is untold, and id rather it that way
if i knew what was ahead, who's to say id stay?

I suggest the movie Amelie. my friend showed it to me yesterday [technically two days ago, but im still up, so i call it yesterday.] its brilliant. at least in my opinion, but i cant quite tell you what to do, now can i? Other movies of interest;
Steal Me
American Beauty
Bradford Schmeckler's Cool Ideas
How to Draw a Bunny; the Ray Johnson Story
Hysteria; the Def Leppard Story
www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXziur… [also suggested by a friend]
Any other suggestions?

After the first month of summer, i have been staying up every night until around two just gazing at art and sucking it into my lungs. im so unbelievably inspired at this point. its funny that i cant seem to finish anything when im most inspired. but it feels more finished and satisfactory than if i had ever tried to complete it. i think my nonsense drawings, photos, paintings, whatsoeveres are better off as is. complete[ly undone].
-Thank you, Peach.